**im back!!**

hello chicklettes well ive finally got the puter up and running again... lots of sweat, tears and effort from myself and the puter shop people!! i swear i should be a bloke.... or maybe i'm just a tad lucky on the handy dandy diy bits and bobs... i couldnt do any manual work as a 'real job' tho cuz in the words of the caretaker on Recess 'if it was a job it wouldnt be a hobby and i wouldnt enjoy ot' or some shit along those lines.well i finished at m+s on saturday... sad day it was!! spent about 4 or 5 hours on the tills which kinda made it go quicker... i guess! lol. they said they'd gladly have me back *grins* so thats cool.happy belated new year people! hope you all had a good one! i drank a bit too much champers and vodka (not together mind) but apart from that it was kewl. chris has photo evidence of my tipsiness which he *very kindly* emailed me in a storyboard kinda style.... blah.mum is currently at the hospital.. theyre telling her what theyre gonna do to her ear... most prob operate and then give her a hearing aid... what happened was they think her ear drum burst but the docs said it hadnt... then it got infected and then a cyst thing impaired her hearing so she's kinda half deaf. we kinda thought the worst when they detected lumps in her ear, but luckily the CAT scan showed nothing too bad. i didnt really wanna relive the saga of almost 9 years ago... wasnt too nice. i dont know what goes thru peoples heads when they hear someone has cancer, but obviously some people are so thick that they cant get it into their skulls that ITS NOT INFECTIOUS. we lost a lot of friends after mum was diagnosed, then came the anger, rage, missed a whole chunk of school, affairs, continual bullying and much more. oh well i guess life doesnt want to treat me well in my early years huh? after the whole saga when i was 8, and then the 13 year old saga, i really do think that ive gotta get away from this family, and 2004 is the time to do it.i think i did quite well writing such a long entry... i had about an hours sleep last night but at least i got thru most of 'the lovely bones'... anyone read it? i'm loving the book personally!xxxxxxxx

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ive not updated cuz our computer died :( so im at nans.... er, yeah i'll write a bigger update when we actually get online again. mailing loads of packages out tomorrow, ames yours is one of them and im finally mailing a giant silver package to dianne too :) xxx

**stolen from di (btw your package will be out nachste woche schweetie!!)

THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW1. white fluffy 'Tilt' slippers with penguins on2. jeans3. glittery dangly snowflake earrings... tres festive!THREE THINGS ON MY DESK (my one upstairs)1. finding nemo toys2. tulip fabric paint bottles3. stampsTHREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE1. graduate2. buy my own house3. go to new yorkTHREE GOOD WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY1. quiet 2. caring3. reliableTHREE BAD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY1. paranoid2. short tempered3. find it hard to say noTHREE PARTS OF MY HERITAGE1. french2. irish3. jewishTHREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY1. height2. weight3. eye colourTHREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MY BODY1. face2. face3. flabby thighsTHREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME1. ive lived in a refuge2. i like to cry3. i love eroticaTHREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST1. yeah2. definately3. okTHREE PLACES I WANT TO GO1. new york2. japan3. walesTHREE NAMES THAT I GO BY1. natalie2. natz3. natziniYOUR NAME: NatalieSOMETHING THAT MAKES YOU FEEL GOOD: ChristopherYOUR FAVORITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING: pjs :)YOUR FAVORITE ACTIVITIES: decoing, shopping, movie watchingYOUR FAVORITE FOOD: chocolate, fruit, salad :)SOMETHING YOU THINK IS STUPID: erm i could list so many things but i cannae be arsedSOMETHING THAT YOU WANT: my own private HIM gigYOUR FAVORITE BAND/SINGER: HIM, No Doubt, Silverchair... and singers? i love all types.A BOOK YOU'VE READ RECENTLY: i've not read for a while, though mum and dad got me a buche and chris got me 2 so ive got some reading to do! yay!A TV SHOW YOU LIKE: Hollyoaks (the cheesiness!)A MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN RECENTLY: Love ActuallyCELEBRITY YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON: Ville ValoYOUR FAVORITE WEBSITE: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/super_sparkly_decosplease join if you are into swapping and decos! looking for lovely spangly new members!!

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You are a Go-Go Girl! Yay you! What kind of Sixties Person are you? brought to you by Quizillago me!!!! tee hee xxxxxboxing day is sooooooooooooooo boring! :P

**crimbo greetings***

...to one and all!!i've been working today and cant wait for 2 days off lol!! im fed up with turkeys and all that shit so here's to a big booze up!! i'm off out for a meal with my parents and sister tonight so i shall be drinking the ole cocktails a-plenty!!shall tell you all about my lovely week and also about the profiterole man!! hahahahahaaaaaa!! dianefayeruff knows about it already dontya hun? silly people!!rennyrays i hope you all have a great time and i cannae wait to hear how you all spent it!!loadsa love and festive sparkles**natz**

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hey allwell im pretty much sick of turkeys.... damn things! guess working at m+s makes you go insane... i was laughed at by lewis and dan by saying 'my phone woke me up at 3 in the morning last night' i kinda think that makes sense though! we are having 200 turkeys delivered for customers who've ordered their turkeys dammit!! :Pwisdom tooth still aches and down to my last 2 nurofen... bloody time of the month too which doesnt help, though as i always know when my visitor will come, i should be more prepared!chris and i exchanged pressies on sat, lovely stuff from him! got the no doubt singles collection, 'gleesides and rarities' by jebediah, a lovely lipsy top, a coupla other tops,a 'greatest girlfriend' rosette to match my mug he got me last year, a buzz lightyear interactive toy and some other fun bits :) he liked what i got him.met a HIM family today at work, how sweet they were too.... the ppl who come into work are either right old moany gits or lovely as hell!merry chrimbo chicklettes!! xxxxxxxx

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well i'm sitting here with a toothache... dumb wisdom teeth! i keep all my others nice and clean and get no cavities (get me... no fillings until i had my braces out when the cement took a tiny bit of tooth away!!) but these buggers continually like to bug me!! and as my dentist is needle phobic (and phobic about everything else as well!!) she says she only has peoples wisdoms taken out if they get infected. i get her point, but they've already buggered up my front, bottom teeth which had been straightened through 5 years of braces and general fucking around! ah well, i guess when i have a nice job teaching at colleges i shall have my mouth re-sorted out!!anywhoo.... i buggered off up to (up to? down to? or should i say across to?) bluewater, it wasnt as busy as i'd thought it'd be (i worked there the past 3 christmasses apart from this one, where ive chosen to work at a smaller, saner mall) and i got mums pressie as well as the final addition to chris' lot (i got him a HIM tshirt, a 'mister sensitive' sticker to put on his door and 2 pairs of jeans... oh and a lee evans dvd.... i didnt spend as much as it sounds cuz im a bargain queen!! needless to say its not poor quality either... i dont believe in that crap!), some tulip fabric paint for myself (6 tubes in a 'starter kit' for £9.99 yay) nice and glittery!! um a little hello kitty writing set from the sanrio store (its weeny in there! i get worried i'll knock everything down with my bag!!) and i think thats it!! dad came up halfway thru and bought me some chinese food (it was stodgy and made me feel yucky though!) and i had to help him buy mum some clothes from Gap (even tho mum so isnt a Gap lady.. a bit frumpy for her!), then he buggered off home and i carried on wondering around.ive been working extra hours at work... this week its 2 extra eves, my second one is this eve and then i'll be working my usual friday eve and saturday daytime... then i'll be trundling down to chris' for our own lil christmas weekend :)i'll let you know how that all goes :)**natz**

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just decided the hair is like chrissie hynde... lol.

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lalalala... i had my cheveaux cut this morning, tres cool. not much taken off but i had my fringe thickened and graduated and have layers all round... so technically you could call it a mullet.... but please dont cause it sure dont look like one!!cosmo came to my rescue.... i subscribe and this morning i got the january edition thru in the mail... and it had a pic of kinda how i wanted my hair to be... and emma cut it just like that! yeah!!if anyone knows how to change pictures apart from changing the default pic that'd be mighty swell info!well im off to do a bit of fun stuff now ie mail off some packages of fun and also tidy ma chambre!! :)

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hm.... i am gettin my hair done tomorrow but cant find the style i want~ i have a picture in my head but i very much doubt the hair dresser can see it! grr! its not on tony and guy or anything like that, i just saw a girl with it and now i wish i'd had my p.d.a with me so i could take a pic of it... darnit!!!!!!!

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i want this....http://www.asos.com/ProdWin.asp?sku=1JEBR0058&img=image1xl

CKY baybee! ma...

CKY baybee! man that was cool last night... much better than stinkin park, lol! yeah so april and phil margera were there and lovely april got on the mike, singing away, aw it was cool! and raab himself was there too! yaysome.today i went to 2 lectures for prep for my student associate scheme, mucho fun and they gave us some totally rad purple folders! wickeda wicked! thats what the gov is spending on...gorgeous ones they are! :)well thats about it in my life so far... prezzies to buy buy buy!! :)love and sparkles xx

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well here i am, an odd saturday night at home... eep! usually shopping in asda with chris right now and heck do i miss the bugger! what with heaps of uni work to do, as well as till training today in the lethargic training room, the parent shit and general im-feeling-like-crap disease, i'm just gonna go to my babys on tuesday when we trundle off to see CKY! :P glad his stinky ex so-called friend has moved to another part of the country so theres not even a meagre chance of crap happening on tues and spoiling our night!work was so tiring today, although my granny helping was sky high!! super extra brownie points for natz! no mail for me today...pah! gonna make some crimbo cards tonight me thinks.ho hum... off to chill baybees. xxx

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this is me... such a nerdy noooo...Be An Anime Character by mangacatgirlCharacter NameEyesBlueHairShort Red Spikey HairFashion StylePajamasAttitudeNerdyRoleMascotCreated with quill18's MemeGen!

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life sucks. my dad had a right old winge at me for going to visit chris every weekend. he told me that obviously chris doesnt love me as much as i thought and doesnt respect me... and that he takes advantage of me and all that shit. i really dont know what to do... i love chris with all my heart but they dont seem to realise this... they just make it out that im a big mug. if i try and get chris to come up (which i think will be a good idea) they'll only moan more that he's shy, quiet etc but im not sure he would come up here anyway. i dont know what to do. theyre trying to split us up. should i go against them and continue to trundle down to his almost every weekend? or get him to come up here for the first time in 7 months? and what shall i do if he doesnt want to come up? i cant break up with him cause i dont want to and i dont want to give into them.

wow $1...

wow $1000 a night... that'll do me but i dont think chris has got that kinda money! ah well! i'll do it for free for him!! :)

You Wo...

You Would Make $1000 a Night!You're not quite ready for the world of a high class hookerBut you've got the skills to see a few generous clients each nightHow Much Could You Make as a Prostitute?More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

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grrrr... why is chris so hard to buy for with presents? he always ends up buying things he likes as soon as he sees them and now im stuck! grrr. will trundle off to bluewater to see what i can find anyway tomorrow... maybe something nice will pop right out at me or something.linkin park really hurt... wembley totally sucks arse as a venue and when you've got a 14 year old girl in a washed out 'white' (supposedly) vest top and wannabe avrilesque tie on jumping on my feet all night (i smacked her, kicked her etc etc but she still wouldnt budge...i wanted to pull her ponytail and give her what for but i know i'd be kicked out for that) it suxx even more. she bloody screamed in my ear etc etc etc and man my panic attack at the end surely got me outta that situation. she then moved onto elaine (chris' sis) who tried her best to fend off the little terror but they were right in front of security! ah well. i very much doubt i'll go to wembley again... they split the floor into 2 and we were in the back half (they did like 15 people in one bit, 15 in the other kinda alternation...unfair!!). yeah so it sucked. lostprophets were cool though :)cannae wait for CKY next tues.... concorde 2 here we come! i shall give my lil opinion on that and shall take my camera if poss! i had pink streaks in my fringe for linkin and man it ruled! def gonna do that for cky! oh the vanity! :Psucky lady from uni is taking bloody ages to let us know if we've got into the 'student associate' scheme (i.e. classroom assistant)~ i really wanna know so that i can sort out my gttr application... its a waste saying im gonna do it when i dont get accepted... pooballs.well i'll better put my cuppa tea away and sort out swaps and stuff! gonna mail out tati's labels tomorra and she's getting me some super cool stuff from hot topic to say merci!love and kisssses xxxx

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i want long legged pjs!!! only long tall sally seem to do them and heck im not paying £40 for some! and theyre too frumpy for me... funky ones would do very nicely. i'd love a long legged pair of care bears ones.... not sure if either exist (pretty much thinking that neither do!) but think ill look a proper moron in them :P nan said she'd make me some but ive not had the time to go look for some material. maybe i should get bright pink fake fur from hobbycraft lol. would love to see me in them! pah.

i'm kinda sucking at this whole layout thing... cannae get this simple brain of mine into working out how to change colours etc... any help would be much appreciated! uni pretty much stank today, i hate hate hate being in groups where there are people who boss everyone around and moan when theyve accidently forgot stuff (like one of my mates did today).. when the accusee has not done any work themselves. pah. almost the end of the week... work 5-9 pm tomorrow eve then i'm off to christophers for a weekend of linkin and lostprophets.